Well, 2018 started off with a bang… Pardon the pun; not a bang of fireworks, as I do not waste money on those. However, a seizure was the beginning of a very rough year. I am glad to see it go and am looking forward to 2019, wondering what God has in store. Wondering what the path is going to be. My eyes are firmly directed on my Lord.
Looking back, someone may look at the negatives of the year. Someone may focus in on the seizure, the cancer, the surgery that left me with intense pain and our financial struggles (aka drowning) since I have not been back to work since June due to the pain and lack of function in my right arm, but mostly the pain.
SOMEONE ELSE MAY FOCUS ON THAT…….
However, my focus is on where God was this year. God made sure my husband heard me when I was seizing (note here that he does not have the greatest hearing all the time – he can really tune things out, and he does). God made sure I was seen by the right doctor who would get me to the right set of doctors who would follow through on my concerns and discover the cancer. God made sure that I was at a facility who would provide me with financial provision to take care of the cost of the surgery, doctors, and everything connected to my stay at the hospital. God made sure I would have a social worker who would walk me through the process of getting help from the state. God was there to make provision for food to be on the table, funds crazily available when I needed gas to go back to the clinic constantly. God was the provider for all our needs. God made the way possible to go where we needed to go and do what we needed to do. God surrounded us with friends and family as helpers, guiders, counselors, sharers, listeners and menders.
Can you see the common link with all this?
GOD WAS THERE
THROUGH IT ALL… GOD IS THERE….. HE DOES NOT LEAVE US…
Looking back on 2018, I see the blessings of the year. There were so many wonderful blessing. My faith grew. My faith became a tangible thing. Though it was not completely steadfast, it did become tangible. I can see the growth. I can see how I leaned in to God and left it all up to Him. Now, I had times of doubt and panic, still do for that matter. BUT, when I refocus on God, that doubt and panic go away as I remind myself that God did not create the Spirit of Fear…. the enemy did, and I do not want to play in the enemies backyard. Do you?
What was your 2018 like? Have you stayed focused on blessings?
John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.