Yes, I am continuing to choose joy.
I am! I am! I am!
At least I keep telling myself that and praying that one day it will be automatic and I won’t have to remind myself to choose joy.
Last Thursday, basically a week ago, I was notified by that wonderful MyChart app that I had notifications. I then discover that next week 12th, 13th, 14th and 15th, is my whole body scan week which requires low iodine diet to be started ASAP. Egg whites, grapes, graham crackers and peanut butter have been my staples until I could get to the grocery and pick up a few fruits and other items. Not really that appetizing, to say the least. Next week I have to get a shot on Monday and Tuesday; then on Wednesday get labs to test TSH level and take a radioactive iodine tablet: I-123. Thank God this is the one with the quick half life so I do not have to be in isolation at that time. Thursday I go back in to get the scan and will know before leaving if I have to schedule to get the I-131 and prepare to isolate.
So, on Aug 5th, I had my CAT scan. Finally got the results from that. Lets just say it is less likely to be the pneumonia or pleural effusion we were hoping it was going to show resolving or resolved. It appears to be something more ominous and requires further investigation. So now the fight is on to get insurance to approve a PET scan.
Last night was 1st Wednesday worship service at church. I was so blessed to be one of the many that were prayed over at this service. I usually don’t step my way to the alter when the call comes up to come forward and be prayed for. I usually stand back at my seat and raise hands in prayer over those up at the alter. Last night, by the grace of the Spirit, I stepped out of my comfort zone and humbled myself in front of my church tribe to seek prayer. The Spirit was strong and moving. He surrounded us, each of us, and extended His love and favor. Praise God.
The last few weeks, I feel like my mind has been in chaos and bombarded. At a book study that I attend with one of my Pastors at church, I spoke out about not knowing if I should be waiting on God or if God was waiting on me to take a step in trust of Him. My Pastor spoke the one thing that brought complete clarity to my situation. She said “ I will pray for God to give you peace in the situation and give you a vision of if you are waiting on him or him on you.” Complete clarity came with the understanding that while my mind is in chaos and under bombardment, my heart is at peace and I am not stressed about the situation in my heart/soul. The world and the enemy strikes again, but God is greater than these and I am so thankful for this reminder and clarification.
Choose joy in your life. Don’t be of this world, just be in it for a season to shine God’s light, plant seeds and be fruitful. May courage be granted to you to stand firmly shining God’s light and be in His will. We each have a purpose and a path. God knew that purpose and path before he formed us in the womb. Let Him create and build in us who intended us to be.
Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
John 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.